TRUTH BE TOLD
Today I find myself Lost
Searching for faith
Pawing through my bags of promise
Searching for tricks
to tame the mind, to soothe the soul but Truth Be Told
I just want to lose it all
I just want to dance all night,
drink too much and fall in loose inappropriate love
Again and again and again.
Yes.
I just want to lose it all
Because Keeping It Together
is much too hard
And how can it be so hard
when I should/could be blessing every moment that I am free to walk my own self down this great good luck garden path life of mine
Oh Yes.
I know that I should know what I know
I know the foolishness of squandering any -every moment of This.
I know the shame of drowning in a sea of my own making.
I know by heart the story of the mermaid who forgot how to swim.
And yet
And yet
Today I find myself sinking.
Grasping for my Mary Poppins remedies and they just ain’t working no mo’ no mo’
I just want.
I just want to lose it all
At the hands of an over-perfumed, over-endowed languid lover who knows how to lead.